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NOT AT ALL EASY!

So long without a word!Life was just too much and fast.My baby will be two years on 7th November but stopped breastfeeding early last month.Weaning is just great as am able to get a good night sleep.She can walk as fast as you and as good as her age.Eats all types of food and that is just great.Oh she loves fruits so much and cries to a sight of any.She can utter like all words and in our lovable mother tongue.

I moved from renting to an own house though in the village.Though so dry but now with heavy rains in the morning,I have been able to plant capsicum and corgett and some kales .I just love seeing them grow and that gives me more hope of seeing a better tommorrow.Istill write am almost over my novel.My kid loves the farm work alot and the key board.Just guess how i juggle all the house works and farm work.Not easy but at least am able to fulfil my daily dose of work.I retire to bed so tired and happy.Tonight I feel like writing so much ,imagine am just alone.The kids are asleep and it is just me and my computer.Just so great!Am now getting on and used to this life.Though familiarizing is getting well ,soon and may be soon i might see my book published.I have two self published books but hopes to publish more.Iam stuck in the issue of marketing.I don't know how to go about it and this makes me so desperate and frustrations are mounting within me.I somehow feel lost and in a dark corner.However ,I still believe I will see the bright side of it.I made made sales of 50 copies on one and almost 70 copies on another.I need motivation and a new approach but then tell me what will i do with my children?Marketing is aggressive and needs moving yet I don't have enough to employ as house help.This leaves me lost.I have tried day care but the kid finds it hard to cope.Am still waiting for a better day.It is not at all easy,but I will make it,A SUCCEESFUL AUTHOR  at the right time.

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